Self Coaching Scholars Buffering?

Hi guys. I appreciate you! 🙂
I am feeling kinda lonely and wishing for a handsome man that is brilliant and wonderful that I could have a drink with and enjoy the world. I’m thinking: Raymon Reddington. ( James Spader). I am wondering if Self Coaching Scholars could be me buffering, so that I don’t have to go after this fantasy? (Or something like it?) I am five years divorced, with an 18 year old daughter who lives with me.
What do you think?