Self Coaching Scholars Membership

I have this fear that I’m going to have to cancel my self coaching scholars membership. My thoughts about this are : My life will be better with the membership. If I have to cancel, my life isn’t going to change. I want to get life changing results quickly and I need this membership to do it. These thoughts are causing the feeling of fear and panic. Another thing to note : This is something that might happen in the future not something that’s currently happening right now.