self sabotage

How do I break a cycle of cleaning that developed in my youth, in a very chaotic dysfunctional
family. I fall into this comfort zone of cleaning rather than push my personal boundaries to grow and be the person I know I’m capable of. I instead fall back onto the ritual of cleaning to avoid the discomfort. I know I’m capable but my actions aren’t representing this, I’m just am stuck and have been for far to long.