i have a hard time taking initiative when i want sex.
sometimes i really want to but something holds me back.
sometimes it is that i’m ashamed because he knows me so well and it would be like playing a role of a sexy, wild girl. And it seems emberassing and wrong.
and sometimes i have trouble coming out of the cuddly and cute situation with him. I feel more comfortable cuddling and holding him.

so my goal is to feel totally comfortable having sex and having fun.
in the beginning of our relationship i did some crazy stuff, i wanted to win and impresse him.

can you help me here?
like give me some exact advise what i could do?

thank you so much!