Shame


Today, I accidentally missed a business meeting I had rescheduled because I missed it yesterday. I have never seen myself do this before. I feel so incredibly ashamed of how I am resisting my own best life. I wrote a profuse apology email, but the worst is that I feel like I don’t deserve another chance. I am so disappointed in myself.

Here is my model:

C — I miss important business meeting twice in a row, because I moved two days ago
T — I am unfocussed, unreliable, retrogressing, undeserving of responsibility or joy
F — Shame
A — profuse apology email and buffering with movies until I fall asleep
R — not improving or seeing myself step forward and upward