Skiing Trip/ Holiday Season

Hi there,

I am currently away skiing with my family and my only thought is how much I don’t want to be here. I keep thinking that it would be better if I was alone.

My boys are acting like boys and I want them to be able to act 11 and 12, but their energy is draining me.

I know its from two thoughts.

My first thought is that they shouldn’t be acting so crazy, like this shouldn’t be happening. I am big time arguing with reality.

My second thought is that I have done so much for the holidays this month and the idea of now skiing with my family and then going to Florida is too much fo me.

I know intellectually I don’t have to do any of this, but I want to do it and hopefully get some space from my thinking. TIA