So Annoyed at Work

So I started Monday Hour One this week. I had a packed schedule today to begin with. I left the house at 6:15am, and I planned to be getting home around 7. Anyway, now some last minute important BS is coming up that will require me to do an extra 45 minute drive to drop something off on the way home. It’s a medical device, so I can’t exactly just say “eff it” without actual consequences.

Plus, there are now literally 18 more tasks and follow ups on my “list” that I haven’t even had time to calendar yet. So now I feel behind. I mostly feel very resentful. I do NOT want to live like this. I make a lot of money, but it’s starting to not feel worth it. It is costing me my LIFE.

My belief that I have to work super hard to make a
Lot of money is screwing me over. I don’t know how to let go of that belief. I want some proof. I want proof, and I want to let go of the resentment.

I thought work was unmanageable because I was unorganized. Now I am seeing that that’s not the case.

I want to quit my job but I’m afraid I won’t be able to replace my income coaching, I’m making multiple six figures. I don’t want to say “I don’t know”. I see that’s indulgent and unhelpful. What can I ask instead? I guess I could ask “how can I leave this job and make the same amount I’m making now or more?” Or “how can I work way less and have an intentional life I create and love while making as much or more money than I am now?”

Am I ridiculous for even thinking this is possible?