Son home week before school


Hi. My 7 y/o son is home this week and it has brought out many thoughts and feelings. I have made many changes to my C line (prior to SCS) to manage being a mother to this loving child. This is my current model:
C: Son is home this week.
T: My son prevents me from living my purpose.
F: Powerless
A: Eat Oreos, watch Netflix, overdrink in the evening, am distant from my child.
R: I think that my son prevents me from living my purpose.

I sat with this model and cried and felt how powerless it feels in my body.

Background: My purpose is to grow and experience life fully.

An intentional model that I can believe:
C: Son is home this week.
T: It is possible that I have exactly the right son to help me live my purpose.
F: Openness
A: More engagement with my son (make plans, do fun things), accept what I feel and think, take responsibility for what I think and feel, fill up my urge jar
R: I have exactly the right son to help me live my purpose.

I’d appreciate any thoughts or suggestions.