spending problem

C: I spent $119 on beads & I have $36k debt
T: I have a spending problem
F: shame
A: Hide my purchase from my partner. Expect him to be upset with me. Ask myself: “what is wrong with me?” Browse Etsy. Watch YouTube videos of jewelry making.
R: I create a problem with my mind?

I am trying to figure out if I am spending money from shame or what’s going on because I must be proving the T true that I have a spending problem.