Spinning/Others Think

I’ve had a intimate situation w/ a person and my mind has made him so important. His acceptance of me. We are in same social circle. I called him out on behavior recently but behaved in a way I’m not proud of. This won’t matter in 5 years but my brain thinks we’re dying. I’m new to scholars….. so I get it… to do a TDL & model….
They don’t help me. . . I’m wondering if there is a point of direction or journal prompts or something that can help me help myself here. . . I’m trying to sit with the discomfort or still take action w/ the discomfort.
Thank you for any thoughts out of this hell.

I also think this is an old old vestiges from growing up, wanting to be accepted and liked…. which I’d like to be unconcerned with, but nevertheless….