Spiral of negativity – christina

I’ve made a lot of progress after being in SCS for 6 months, primarily in self-awareness of my thoughts & feelings. BUT, I also feel kind of terrible most of the time. I’ve identified that my thoughts about myself & my life are incredibly negative, most of the time. Intellectually, I understand the model, being self aware, learning compassion for myself and these life-long pattern of thoughts, etc. But, I don’t feel like I’m progressing. It’s as if I progressed to the point of learning these things and can’t get over the hump of changing any of it. I do the homework, schedule time with a tutor each month, listen to the live calls. And still I feel the same.

In daily life I’m showing up and taking care of what needs to be done with work and my family. I just feel like crap in my head much of the time.

What can I do to evolve past this point? I feel so stuck.