Staying or leaving

Hey coaches,

I’ve been part of an online co-working community for 1+ year. I used to be very active in this community and have made several friends along the way, including with the owner of this community. Over the past few months, however, I’ve used this community much less than before.

I have several Ts about this:

It’s no longer the right community for me. I’m not sure why. It just doesn’t “feel right” anymore. I don’t have a good reason for wanting to leave, yet I’m not sure I want to stay. I don’t like some of my reasons for wanting to leave. I don’t like some of my reasons for wanting to stay. I need to make a decision because it’s silly to continue paying for the membership and not use it. If I left, I would have to give the owner a reason for leaving and I wouldn’t know what to say. Telling her “it no longer feels right” doesn’t seem like a good enough reason. That’s not how I would like to show up in my relationships. Leaving would feel like a betrayal. It’s not that expensive so maybe I could stay on and see if I change my mind later on.

I’ve noticed that I’ve been ruminating on the above for a while. I’m also indulging in confusion because I don’t want to make a decision. I could use some guidance.

Thanks so much.