Still don’t want to be divorced


I’m in the middle of an ugly divorce and had an argument with my soon to be ex-husband today and this past weekend. I think the divorce is having abundant negative consequences on my children.

I can’t stand my husband, think he is a white-collar psychopath, still love him, hate him, and wish I never married him. However, I still don’t want to be divorced and have my children go through this divorce situation.

I know it’s a C, but it doesn’t seem neutral at all and I don’t want to be a divorced person (although starting to date makes me kind of like not being with him.)

I mostly don’t want a divorced family life for my children. I keep blaming him for this in my mind and hate him for doing this to our family and my life.