Still Hate

I know we are supposed to choose love, and I would have thought I would, but I hate my ex-husband father of my children, and I like my reasons.

Still, I think something is wrong with me that I feel hate and if I feel hate for him, I must be full of hate, even though I feel a lot of love and care for others.

I heard, if you squeeze an orange, orange juice comes out.  So, since hate is coming out of me with his meanness, that is still hate coming out of me so I must be a person of hate.

That makes me feel sad, discouraged and afraid.  I don’t know what to do about this feeling of hate that I have and think there is something wrong with me that I have it.

Thank you