Stop Overeating 2/30


From my last post: “I overate and my weight is too high”, I called my weight “the damage”.

SCS Coach: What can you currently believe about this C, this number, that feels more loving and grounded? (Adding “maybe” to the beginning goal thought might feel more believable.) Come up with 5-10 bridge thought options and try them on like clothes. See what fits.

C weight on the scale says >134.0lbs
T this is going in the wrong direction
T I can’t do anything right
T nothing ever works
T I just can’t do this

C weight on the scale says >134.0lbs
T Nothing ever works
F Defeated
— I actually interrupted this thought with a better-feeling one in the below model:

C Scale is over 134.0
T This isn’t rocket science – I overate and my weight went up. No surprises here.
F Fine?
A (this is the actual A): ell, I thought about the number, I mostly let it go, I know that realistically, my weight is acting perfectly fine – I overate and my body gained weight. I went to work, I mostly ate on protocol, but I didn’t eat perfectly. I ate protocol foods though, I just didn’t deal with my urge to eat before dinner.
R: I accept that my food consumption and weight are related in a scientifically proven way.

5-10 bridge thoughts:
C: Scale says >134.0
T: No surprises here; I overate and my body responded.
T: Maybe the number on the scale is irrelevant (feels unbelievable)
T: I remember when I was THRILLED to be 134.0 (feels better)
T: Maybe my weight is a perfect reflection of my thinking (feels better)
T: Maybe my weight is actually my saving grace pointing me back to how my thinking is creating my own reality (feels pretty good)
T: Maybe my weight is just science (meh)
T: Maybe my weight is just the theoretical mass of this physical flesh body bone brain blood apparatus I’m temporarily calling my “body” while the fragment of consciousness my ego erroneously thinks is “me” floats around on this tiny speck of dust called “earth” in this massive universe where time, space, and mass don’t even really exist anyway (actually feels pretty good)
T: Maybe my weight is completely irrelevant (meh)

Okay, I think the one I like best is T: Maybe my weight is actually my saving grace pointing me back to how my thinking is creating my own reality (feels pretty good)

C: weight is >134.0
T: Maybe my weight is actually my saving grace pointing me back to how my thinking is creating my own reality
F: Hopeful
A: Make food plan, stick to it for tomorrow, continue doing models, feeling more motivated to eventually share my story etc. I find meaning in the struggle.
R: My weight shows me how my thinking is creating my own reality.

I mean, I can feel kind of grateful that my weight is such a direct measure of my own thinking!!!

Now, time to write out protocol for tomorrow.