I’ve had 2 days of quite extreme (for me) stress eating which I would even go as far as calling binge eating for 2 days (Tues Wed). Usually I’m balanced with my eating, have lost weight over 3 years & maintained it, follow my meal plans etc. I did 2 models this morning on this which should be self-explanatory & I would love some feedback. I am very keen to put a hard stop to it from today so am using this opportunity of writing here & discussing my models as my signal for it to stop.
(start with A) Unintentional model
C: changes at work: many staff members left clinic in recent months, pandemic happened and staff not rested, changes in my role & caseload at the clinic
T: I’m working under a huge amount of pressure and unsupported
F: high stress
A: overeating & eating off plan over 2 days
blocking out my thoughts about the overeating
worrying I’ll then end up putting on weight adding to my problems
collapsing in bed early for 2 days
resentment builds towards family members though trying to control it
resentment builds towards my boss
rumination about all the things I can’t do at work which just are not possible as we are so understaffed
veering between idea of quitting altogether – which many did – or pushing myself to doing more or just feeling guilty
R: risking burnout / close to it
(intentional model, start with R)
C: changes at work: many staff members left clinic in recent months, pandemic happened and staff not rested, changes in my role & caseload at the clinic
A: doing my meal plans each day and actually following them a an act of self care
paying more attention from now onwards to my weekly meal planning time so that I make sure there are things I put on my meal plan that I enjoy and nourish me
follow my usual clear rule: no eating at work (avoid all the biscuits & cakes there) apart from the packed lunch & snack I bring.
keep to my daily times with husband for check ins & organisation
Discuss with supervisor on Friday what is going on and list some priorities about steps to take for protection from bullying colleague
If needed, do journaling twice a day as it really helps & use Ask Coaches more to get further guidance through this difficult time
Create a timeline for myself: is this situation at the clinic a ‘storm’ that we have to weather? or are these the conditions under which we will be working? just fire-fighting & not managing to offer a good safe service, with such a small staff group? if the latter, what will I do? Give this some time and think of options.
R: looking after myself as a priority during hard period at work
