I’ve done some thought models surrounding my full-time job and why I’m having a hard time completing my projects. I’d love your perspective as to what I might be missing.

Unintentional thought:
C – Work day has begun
T – I don’t want to do this project
F – Depressed
A – Procrastinate, daydream, busywork
R – Project doesn’t get done

Intentional thought:
C – Work day has begun
T – I’m doing this no matter what
F – Committed (willing?)
A – Work on the project
R – Project is complete

Despite directing my unintentional thought to my intentional thought, I have recently noticed myself just deciding to procrastinate and not complete my project. This leads me to feel even worse about myself. There’s guilt (I’m not doing what I’m paid to do) and fear (I could get fired if this continues).

I noticed that one of my personal issues is that when I complete a project assigned to me, there’s no urgency for it to be built (I’m a digital product designer) and it often sits in the backlog for a long time. This is discouraging for me because the whole point of my role is to deliver projects and see it through to production. I know that I’m letting this circumstance play a role in my thinking. Should I change my thought model so it addresses the cause?

Unintentional model:
C – Work day has begun
T – There’s no point in doing this now
F – Indifferent
A – Procrastinate, daydream, busywork
R – Project doesn’t get done

Intentional model:
C – Work day has begun
T – My job is to complete this; when it gets built is none of my business
F – Committed
A – Work on the project
R – Project is complete

Is there another way I could think about this?