Thank you so much for all the great content, this is the best time for me to do this work!
Instead of ruminating that I cannot sleep, I decided to do a thought-download and work on my models. I can see how my brain tries to spin into thought patterns that are not serving me. Looking at my thought download I decided to pick the one thought that seems to be coming up most frequently.
The thought is: “I just pretend to make a contribution because I am not able to do the real science. The truth is I cannot even help myself.”

Here is my UIM:
C: Discussion section of student paper is missing 2 paragraphs while I started organising a virtual mental health network for the place I work for.
T: I just pretend to make a contribution because I am not able to do the real science. The truth is I cannot even help myself.
F: Doomed.
A: Buffering with twitter, comparing myself with “real scientists” and creating more thoughts that are not serving me.
R: Gathering more evidence for T, discussion still missing 2 paragraphs.
(Also did not show up as the mother, partner, group-leader and friend I want to be…many, many thoughts come crashing down, thought download pretends to go on forever until I make the decision to stop after a page.)

IM:

C: Discussion section of student paper is missing 2 paragraphs while I started organising a virtual mental health network for the place I work for.
T: I am figuring out how to finish this this discussion, this is how I help myself and others.
F: Weak.
A: Start judging myself.
R: Gathering more evidence for T, discussion still missing 2 paragraphs.
(Also did not show up as the mother, partner, group-leader and friend I want to be…many, many thoughts come crashing down, thought download pretends to go on forever until I make the decision to stop after a page.)

Something seems off with my IM?

Thank you.

Many thanks!