Stuck on a thought

Hi there,

As I am digging more and more into my relationship with food it is becoming abundantly clear that it’s an obligation in my mind to look good, clean the house, take care of the kids, etc. 

The only real association my brain has with freedom or indulgence is in food. My pre-frontal cortex knows this is a big fat lie but I feel stuck here. I know all of the things I do, I choose to do and no one is making me do them. I even like my reasons for doing them! 

But I am stuck in this default victimhood mentality and instead of celebrating my life I celebrate or enjoy my food. Could use some help here producing some wiggle room and also any suggestions on how to recognize or associate freedom with my other responsibilities. Thank you!