Telling the truth

I missed my ex boyfriend and lost will power and texted him hello. Within three texts back and forth he asked to meet up. I have a boyfriend who loves me. I will not meet up with my ex. But he continues to text me. My heart is not over my ex. We dated for five years. I will always love him. It seems like I should be with either if I have feelings for both.

C – I communicated with my ex and have not told my boyfriend
T – It’s too scary to tell either about the other.
F – guilt and shame
A – stay silent
R – don’t move forward with either