It’s 3pm on the 1st and I’m still beating myself up over my NYE behaviors. The usual result of too many cocktails etc. I have learned that this doesn’t accomplish anything except make you feel worse. But I’m having a problem stopping it anyway. I was among a large group of friends in similar state but I don’t feel any relief from that knowledge. Feel embarrassed and ashamed. When I woke up this morning, it was the first thought that entered my mind. So I tried to just recognize it. It’s just a feeling etc. But over the day I’ve actually felt worse about the evening instead of better.