I just had this realization that I have been thinking “they should be different than they are” about a lot of people in my life but I think the more truthful thought that I’m having is that “I should be different than I am.” When I think about this, I think about how I should be a different weight, look different, dress differently than I currently do, I should be spending my time differently, I should have more friends, I should have better friends, my apartment should be cleaner, things should be decorated differently, etc, etc, etc. Just all these thoughts about how I should be different than I currently am now.

I think I was having this thought about other people should be different because if it was about them, then I wouldn’t have to look inward at myself. But, now that I realize it is really about me, how do I get to the point of acceptance? That this is where I am now? How do I love myself and accept myself for what is now?