This is not what I wanted

C: Divorce in process, on dating site looking for matches
T: This is not what I wanted, looking for a partner in midlife, they are all so old
F: Discouraged
A: Think of how I wanted to find my partner and enjoy life with them, not meet someone so late in life, keep initiating connections and talking with people, feel the urge to return to the previous boyfriend, someone with some history.
R: I’m failing to see the youth in people or the possibility of creating and enjoying something deep and meaningful