Thought believe the love of my life

So I tried again to think my thought of the month “he’s the love of my life”.

And immediately after thinking it I feel the feeling I describe little bit like this:

I just don’t feel the strong feelings, respect I should or I think should be if I think he’s the love of my life.

It’s not enough the feeling, I feel it’s ridiculous.

I can’t seem to find the exact thought it just goes directly do this not enough, ridiculous feeling.

Can you help me with that?

I want to be able to know the exact thought and not only have the feeling and be able to only describe the feeling.

Thank you very much.

big hug