Doing daily thoughts download, since I joined SCS, is having such a tremendous effect on me and how I see myself. You taught me to question everything I believe in, especially thoughts and beliefs that cause me to feel bad.
The other morning I started writing this sentence – ‘Had I been certain of myself as a writer…’
I wanted to share with you what came out in just a few minutes of bursting writing:
Had I been certain of myself as a writer, I would not purchase anymore books on writing. I would thank my screenwriting coach and announce to her that I graduated, that I studied enough, that I know everything I need to know to move and laugh people with my stories, that I have and always had in me that innate knowing of storytelling, that I was born to do this, into this and that this is the only thing I am good for.
Had I been certain of myself as a writer, I would not pay anymore for writing courses, conferences, webinars, ebooks, lectures. I would free up so many hours where I can actually live, move more, take walks, be in nature, read amazing fiction work, and get hired as a screenwriter and be busy working on a set.
Had I been certain of myself as a writer, I would write anywhere. I will not need strict rituals, daily word quota, lighting a candle, and other external signs that it is ok for me to unleash her from me. I would trust myself so clearly and wholly that I will know that every sentence I will write will be the most beautiful sentence I have ever read.
Had I been certain of myself as a writer, I will not need to seek others’ advice or approval, their tips and their wisdom. I could be the one to give these to others. I would be the one to whom others will come, those who just started their walk on this journey.
Had I been certain of myself as a writer, I would feel ten times lighter, I would have an immense sense of knowing of myself and certainty that I only need to keep looking within and listening to my own inner voice in order to really take notes of the stories she is telling me.
Had I been certain of myself as a writer, I would know that I am my own creator and my own fuel. That as long as I will stay tuned and connected to my real inner self, I will be able to bathe daily and regularly in endless incredibly moving stories.
Had I been certain of myself as a writer, I would be unstoppable. My pen will be gushing over the notebook and my keyboard will be typed on fearlessly. I will approach them with such certainty and confidence, the kinds you can’t buy, the kinds you simply know you have. You can sense them in every part of your body.
Had I been certain of myself as a writer, I will not be uptight around writing. Writing and stories will flow to me and I will be ready always to grab them and write them down. Poems, scripts, screenplays and books will be released to me, poignant, passionate, moving, and unique.