Thought Drama 12.31.21

Normally I have done a model already but I’m a little nervous today and just wanna write it out. I’m going back to working at home. I used to work at home and I had such a tough time being at home before. I would get distracted by outside noises and my neighbors. They aren’t always loud but occasionally it would be something I had trouble with. If I put on headphones I would be in total silence and that would trigger my anxiety. I often had panic attacks before and left the job to get better. I did but I was missing the actual work of my old job so here I am. I start it back up in a week and I’m scared. I’m scared to relapse back into constant panic attacks and depression. I don’t wanna lose all this progress. Help!