Thought models and downloads. Where do I even begin?

I have been in scholars for a month and a half, and I RARELY do any models or thought downloads. I say that I want to do them, and I do them maybe in my head, but when I actually think of a thought I want to do a model on, I just don’t have the paper or pen, or the time to do it. And, somehow I try to remember to do it later and then totally forget. I really want to understand the model and put it into practice, but I just feel stuck. I’m going to try to do one right now:

C: I have a business but I’m only working underneath other businesses/agencies
T: I should have my own clients
F: fear
A: none
R: staying at the same level I’m at