Thoughts about my daughter


C –  Daughter (5) says she wished she was never in my belly and I’m a mean mommy.
C –  Daughter continues to draw pictures of her family with her dad and his wife and new baby and other family members without me.
T – How can my daughter say things like that and draw pictures without me when I’m a single parent and do my best to be a wonderful mother to her. I go out of my way to be sure I’m not parenting in an out dated way.
F – Angry
A – Spin in my thoughts and feelings.
R – Distance myself from my daughter physically or tell her the truth about why she’s doesn’t see her dad as much. (This is an inappropriate response).

I’m exhausted with thinking these thoughts.
I know it’s not helpful to wish them away but I don’t know how else to handle this.