Thoughts on excellence


My impossible goal for 2020 is to have two novels written and edited and a third book drafted by December 31st, 2020 so that I can launch my career as a novelist in 2021with three quick releases. I wrote half of my first book’s rough draft in November and am hoping to finish the rest of the rough draft this month, but I have had trouble getting back into the story.

For today’s thought download I asked myself the question from the podcast workbook, “How can I have the best time creating this impossible goal while still creating it?” Here is what I uncovered:

Unintentional model:
C: Two books written and edited and a third book drafted by December 31, 2020
T: I want the books to be excellent
F: Anxious and a little desperate
A: Censor as I write or find myself frozen in perfectionism. Not fun.
R: No finished novels therefore nothing for people to criticize.

C: Two books written and edited and a third book drafted by December 31st, 2020
T: I will find an audience for my books.
F: Confident
A: Work on books that speak to my heart knowing there will be others out there who will respond to them too.
R: I will have three books ready for publication in 2021.

The issue I am having is a desire for excellence has served me in my creative work in the past (in scripting and producing videos for businesses and nonprofits), and though it doesn’t seem to be serving me here, I find it difficult to let go. My intentional model doesn’t directly address the first one. I would appreciate any suggestions. Should I work on changing my thoughts on excellence?