Tired, and tired of trauma


I have been for 4 years in Emdr therapy. I have made progress, I manage my panic attacks, but I have still a very bad sleep every neght. I sleep 8 hours but wake up my heart beating and drown from an anxiety linked to Ptsd.

My issue is that I am in a new job, I am glad but it is hard because of the lack of good sleep. I feel sleepy every day, and very very tired at the end of the day.

Also, I trust my therapist, but I don’t know when I will fully recover, and I feel desperate sometimes. I would like to say that in 6 months I will be totally fine, but it is not something predictable.

I tried the thought “I have to give myself time to recover” and “I am doing my best at work at my own pace”, but I can’t remember the last time I felt energised and secure, it was like 9 years ago and it’s hard to keep being hopeful so long.

How can I think about my condition (ptsd) ?

Thank you