Tired of the thoughts from my subconscious brain.

I hope I can adequately explain this. I’ve been with Scholars for a few months and working with a life coach since July. I’ve come a long way in that time. I find myself getting impatient with the process. I don’t think I think I should be further along in the process. I grow tired of the thoughts that my subconscious offers. The thoughts that don’t and aren’t serving me. It’s exhausting.
I find myself going buffering because mentally I am exhausted but then get upset because I buffered. Ooo, this stuff is hard.
This is the most determined I’ve been and I want to get to the other side but I get tired of the back and forth and the yelling I get from my subconscious and revert back to default. Help please! Maybe I just need a nap! LOL!