Too many subscriptions


I subscribed to several online memberships. I don’t have enough time to do all the content from all the programs. I want to stop my monthly memberships except for Scholars, ideally. But, I am fixated on getting through all the content and “getting what I paid for”. So I’m not quitting any of the programs until I finish everything, because I don’t want to waste any of the money I spent by not doing the content. Unfortunately this just puts me in a feeling of stress because I think about the money being auto-withdrawn every month I don’t complete these programs. Every day feels like a catch up day. As is, I have tons of Scholars material to keep me busy for a while, but I’m just doing the minimal daily work. This feels like such a stupid problem to have. Some days I just want to unsubscribe to everything, but I’m really beating myself up over missing the content. It’s taking a lot of brain space. I wish I could just make more money and keep all of them and do them leisurely, but that’s not the current situation. I have to save for property taxes this year, so I need to cut my budget where I can. My brain is just really committed to the story that I have to complete everything first.