It is just too difficult to direct my thoughts as they keep appearing sometimes hidden in other thoughts but with the same underlayers. Thus, if is difficult to remove the unserving ones, the neural pathways are probably very well traced and i feel like my mind is betraying me. I give her new food but it has lots of resources of old food… which appear every time i fo not pay attention – and i cannot always pay attention and choose my thoughts.
Also, when practising new thoughts, they do not feel like mine and the mind opposes and says like ok here comes the nonsense again let’s keep quiet it will pass? So very hard to create new pathways in the brain – i have no success so far.
Is there a solution to this “mill” which i cannot control 24/7?
Thank you ! You rock Brooke i wanna be like you!!!