Torn between ideas

With the ideas we are working on in this week, I notice that I’m feeling kind of panicked and distracted. The idea I chose to work on is growing a specific kind of garden that I’ve been dreaming of. The garden is somewhat aligned with what I do for money. However I am feeling like I SHOULD be focusing on figuring out how to create an income working for myself, serving people, doing what I love and am called to do. There’s sort of an overlap but I don’t know how the garden could lead to the income. And the self employed income has more pieces to it than just the garden. I am in a position where I do need to think about how I will support myself moving forward. So I’m feeling torn between these two things and unable to focus on either. Do I continue to pursue the garden? Do I pursue a self employed income? Help!