Travelling or house and I want both

I’m fairly new in Scholars and am learning to get to grips with my brain! Thank you.

I’m at a crossroads in my life. I don’t know whether to 1) go travelling or 2) look to settle into a career and save for a house.

My choices as I seem them are:

Travel – no job, no mortgage
Mortgage – need job so no travelling.
Neither [unthinkable for me right now]

(I know there will be ways around this technically such as a remote working job, but working on this assumption right now as it is realistic for me)

(I also know a lot of these are just thoughts!!)

My current model is:
C life choices
T I’m scared to make a decision in case it is the wrong thing
F Fear
A Bury my head in the sand, avoid thinking about it, buffer with alcohol
R remain scared and stuck.

How can I use this work to move forward? I don’t know where to start.

I can’t seem to land on a new feeling /thought to believe because either choice means missing out on the other choice and I want both.

I’ve tried a few IM’s around ‘making a decision’ but I’m not getting anywhere because of the (perceived) pain of the road not taken.

I’d be so grateful if you’d guide me on what I can be working on and how I can untangle this.

Thanks coaches and thanks for scholars