Trying to relax, brain freaking out.

I’m trying to learn HOW to relax more and my brain is freaking out.
I always feel like I’m in an off mood on the weekends… and I’m thinking a lot of it is because my brain isn’t going a million miles an hour and I don’t know how to think and be in the moment. It always wants to jump into the future and put itself into exhaustion or stress. So it’s difficult to be still, calm, and relaxed. I don’t know how to slow my mind down and to allow calm, peaceful days to be the new normal.. It feels like I don’t deserve that or like I feel so off when I try to create those moments… but I want to create those moments and totally relish in them with confidence.