Two Beliefs

I’ve always felt that God is in control of my life, and that my life just happens to me. I guess I believe that I do have some control over what happens, but not 100% because God is more powerful. This morning I was thinking about the effect of our thoughts in our lives, and started seeing new ways that people’s lives reflect their beliefs. But from that place I start to question God’s existence, because these are things that I’ve always believed come from God/ or God is in control of. Not sure where to go from here in my self coaching- I want to believe in both, that the model is how we create our lives but that God is also there. How can I create space for both of these beliefs, instead of one disproving the other?