Underearning and Overspending

I am so sick of myself. I have skills I’m not marketing. I have money flying out of my bank account because I can’t stop adding to cart, especially courses. All kinds of courses. Money courses, marketing courses, skill building courses. Meanwhile I need to buy new clothes and a desk and I’m chasing after what I don’t know. I need to save money, not spend it, I don’t want to create trouble in my marriage with the cashflow. But I keep doing it. I don’t seem to know how to stop sabotaging all the potentially good stuff I could create or make. 100% frustrated.