Understanding my past


I have been rewriting my past and trying to understand so I tell a good story about it, but sometimes I still find myself getting a bit angry telling the story of my past relationship. I have been trying to find a reason why things went like that, and I did(maybe not
enough) like to find the lesson in it, but I am assuming there is little bit of work to be done since I get a little anxiety when I think of it. I would like to see it neutral
Or in a way it’s serving me. Do u have any suggestions? Thank you very much as always:)