Wanting to eat off protocol

I’m not hungry. I’m tired, I feel unattractive, my skin is breaking out, and I have a lull in my day. I have stuff I want to fix but I can’t find the motivation to do it. So I’m sitting here in my car, procrastinating bc I’m tired, feeling uncomfortable, wanting to soothe with food.

How do I even find the thought that’s causing this?

I feel like I don’t even have access to the thought.