Wedding


I am feeling really sad today and I am trying to let myself just feel sad but I keep trying to make it mean something. The circumstance is that my wedding is less than a month away and I invited 90 people but only 27 are coming. My thought is I have no real friends. I am feeling unloved, sad and rejected. I intellectually know that its my choice to think that but I am having a hard time thinking an intentional thought about this, i.e. everyone is busy or its not about me if they cant come. My brain seems to go right back to my unintentional model. I have been working on this for many weeks too.