C: List of things I want to do exists
T: I’m already doing it wrong
F: Resistance (this feels like…spinny, fast spinning energy in my upper body and neck)
A: I spiral around looking at the list and not taking any action, I don’t schedule anything, I want to eat/buffer, I want to watch tv/buffer, I want to go to bed/buffer
R: I don’t take action and I don’t act in alignment with my intention

I can see that I have been avoiding feeling the fast spinning energy. It’s really not that bad, actually, it’s just moving around and I’m exhausted from trying to push it away or avoid it.

I can look at a ladder, now that I’m feeling the emotion

C: List of things I want to do exists
T: It’s possible that I’m doing everything right
T: I have all the tools to do everything consciously
T: I feel ungrounded right now, and that is totally understandable
T: It’s possible that I’m doing everything 100% right
T: I have all the tools I need to own my life
T: I know EXACTLY what to do

THAT’s the thought right there –> I know EXACTLY what to do. That clicks.

C: List of things I want to do exists
T: I know EXACTLY what to do
F: Confident
A: Print off my list, schedule fun time, schedule gym, make my protocol, tidy up, go to bed at a normal human time instead of buffering with my phone, make a clear calendar of events, print a monthly scholars workbook to do models in, decide on a morning and evening routine that works for me
R: I plan for the day I want, get done what I want, and live the life I want

This feels pretty good.