Weight Gain

I am working on my body image. I am on new medication and gaining weight. I want to be able heal and not worry about my weight, but I feel disgusting. I am also not feeling better on these medications, but I am not sure if I have been on them long enough to make a difference. I am frustrated with myself that I am thinking like this. I am frustrated that it’s overlapping into my workouts, my days, etc. I am frustrated by the human experience and completely indulging in victimhood. I want to push myself to show myself some grace, but the idea to just go back to my old ways seems so attractive.