I have been following a protocol and feel great about that. I am starting to lose weight and I’m noticing that I’m getting extra “excited” about my weight loss but not really in a good way. It’s hard to explain. It’s like the excitement that comes at the top of a rollercoaster before it swoops down to a new all time low. This has been my pattern of weight loss: gain, binge and restrict. I’m noticing that manic kind of happiness and am trying to uncover what the thought is that’s causing it.
T Oh my god I’m 0.1lb away from being in the 120s.
T Oh my god my dreams are coming true
T Oh my god maybe I can get to my dream weight!
(The “oh my god” feels necessary. It conveys the frantic energy I’m feeling.)
F A manic kind of excitement
A I tell myself that I can do this, I feel kind of “high”, I feel the urge to restrict my food more which I know leads to bingeing, I burn myself out on excitement
R I guarantee that I remain CLOSE to my goal but never really achieve it – happiness AND weight
I’d like to think something that makes me feel less frantic so that I can be stable instead of so up and down.
T This is what happens when you stick to the math and get rid of the drama.
F Steady / Confident?
A Continue preparing a fulfilling healthy meal plan and sticking to protocol
R I continue to stick to the math and get rid of the drama.