What about when life isn’t 50/50?

I feel like I’m on the verge of answering this for myself. Its just right now I am so negative, I spend a significant amount of time buffering through overeating, spending and screen time. If I had to put a percentage I would say I am 80% miserable and 20% positive. Even trying to get this typed out, I have stopped, rewrote it and spent time ordering fast food and on Facebook. I did spend about 5 minutes doing a thought download (yay me!) and I am starting on the Mastering Emotional Well Being pathway.

Like where do I find the willpower or whatever it is I need to stop buffering enough to actually deal with things and allow myself to be miserable, and anxious and angry and all that I feel is lurking under the buffering, and still function through my life?