I am struggling with moving forward. 15 months I found out my spouse of 14 years was having an affair, in 10/19 my eldest nephew committed suicide and in 3/20 my mother died very suddenly. Prior to October I had been able to focus and work on thought downloads and models. Since October I cannot seem to focus in on my feelings enough to get a thought download completed and it has gotten worse since March. I know I have been buffering. I can see what is happening, I cannot seem to get clarity on changing it. I have an idea where I would like to go but cannot seem to stick with the plan. I know I have a lot to unpack, but I cannot seem to figure out where to start.