Which impossible goal?


Dear Brooke,
I keep changing my mind about my impossible goal (it’s fascinating to see how much anxiety I can create out of thin air, my brain keeps trying to escape the idea of one goal, even as I’m committed to following your advice exactly). The 2 impossible goals I’m wavering between are:
1/ Earning $10,000 per month working only 15 hours per week (achieved in the final 3 months of 2018)
My reason: Having this income would bring me security, freedom & empowerment – it would serve my family tremendously. I’d need to evolve in ways I can’t even imagine.

2/ I look amazing – I’m fit, strong, healthy, beautiful and beautifully dressed.
My reason: looking and feeling amazing would benefit every area of my life. Without health no other goals matter. If I were to die in 2019 I’d rather look and feel amazing than have a great income. I’d develop the physical discipline I’ve never had.

Both feel breath-takingly difficult and impossible. Both feel important. I’m 45 years old and have 2 young children. I’ve been mostly a stay at home mom for the past 8 years. I have a maximum of 30 hours per week available.

Any thoughts which might be the better goal? I can see this will be huge if I can constrain and commit to one. I’m already anxious about it – is that as it should be??
Thank you!!!