WHY CAN’T I LEARN ALREADY – COMING BACK WITH THOUGHT DOWNLOADS


COACHING SESSION IS BOOKED BUT FAR AWAY, NEED HELP NOW. MY THOUGHT DOWNLOADS ON 3 QUESTIONS:
“Why is it a problem if he spends full time on the property?” – tasks are not complete, priorities are not aligned with the goal – picking stupid shit over what will bring us sooner to the profitable usage of the property as we agreed before we singed up for it, doesn’t contribute financially – no income coming in from him, seems that he got himself a nice retreat and i am paying for it by working full time and picking up extra gigs all the time – that was not what i signed up for.
“What do you mean by “i miss my chance to sneak out of the house?” – he gets very loud and verbally abusive, i told him when he was in good mood that i will leave the house or room next time he gets like that – has nothing to do with him, my own boundaries, if i get too responsive to a situation and forget my own rule – and miss a chance to leave the room or house for that moment, i become just like him – loud, verbally abusive and that creates a fight , i usually get on a bus to go home or spend rest of the time in my own victimised misery.
“Why do you want to run away ?’ – i feel that i deserve to be treated better,h i feel that we lost something, he is loud and arogant at times and i can not get used to it – seems like he tries to compensate his lack of education, skills, income producing abilities with loudness and arrogance , to bring me down and keep me there, i don’t believe the words he says, because men like me and i have never had a problem in that department, but i was madly in love with him and now its lost .i do tons of models on that , and i am better at it, but it still happens, because i am missing something in my own work . thank you