Why do I resist what is good?

Hi SCS Team,

I have been noticing that I don’t do the things I want to do. I’m not talking about the big things such as not working towards the goal (been doing the Time Management module). I mean small immediate things that are good, such as this morning I was in bed and feeling not very good. I looked outside and it was lovely and I wanted so much to go for a walk. I had nothing stopping me going for a walk. This was something I desired greatly. Yet I still did not get up for the walk. Eventually after sharing this with a friend I got up and walked and it was the best.

I can’t seem to pick up on any thoughts I have that are stopping me. Not sure why I can’t seem to become conscious of them as I am usually extremely aware of my thoughts.

Would love your help! Thank you =)