Why isn’t the model working for me?

I want to be a life coach but here’s the thing: life coaching isn’t working for me.

I have hired probably 20 coaches and have spent so much money.

I do models all the time, but I am SO attached to my thoughts, I can’t let go. I’m attached to them like a damn dog with a rawhide bone, I just will NOT let go. So, I guess I know why it’s not working, I’m completely committed to believing my thoughts.

I am just SO afraid to let go of my thoughts and beliefs, I just CANT do it. I’m so afraid of what will happen if I let go that I end up latching back on really tightly, again.

I am making myself pretty miserable, to be honest. How do I let go of thoughts that I really, really believe???